Journey Of A Soul

• Clare England, Grade 9
• Poetry
• 2011

Colder than I've ever been, my heartbeat has frozen in time.

Lost in environments unnatural to me and feeling a gravitational pull.

Need to be somewhere I know but where should I go?

So many signposts, so many roads,

Fireflies humming around my head creating golden light,

Showing me the way, showing me the path.

Who am I supposed to meet.. where is my destination?

White hairs stand on his head in every direction, sitting perfectly;

The Adrian looks at me, eyes of scarlet; frozen heart also,

What is an Adrian doing in my path, I question

What is a mortal doing in my habitat? he replies;

Spoken so softly like a blazing breeze,

My hair falls upward and the world turns upside down,

Gravity has been exchanged, no longer shall I have to remain on this world;

No longer shall I have to stay planted like a wilting rose;

Floating together the Adrian and myself drift off the planet into our own world,

The fantastic effects make me feel giddy and light;

We exchange soul-searching stares and freely let go of our bodies,

They are nothing more than shells, shells of protection;

Then our hearts melt and our souls are separated into different dimensions.

I miss the feeling of another soul, I want that soul back, I want its companionship.

Where can I search for that soul? What universe could it have been transported to?

Slipping into a dizzy state I feel my heart melting more and more;

I need that soul to survive, must survive, must live.

Must I live? Do I crave companionship so much that my heart will melt away without it?

How could I possibly find a soul such as an Adrian's in a vast galaxy such as this?

It would take light years, such time I don't have.. such time I'll never have.

I guess my ending has been determined then, I shall die a lonely soul.

Just as I am drifting through the starry galaxy I fall, fall through a wormhole, a wrinkle in time.

Such an exciting ride! My heart beats with pain as it melts away with longing.

Never have I felt this feeling before. Why now? Why in the ending does the unpreventable happen?

Just as I pass through the end of the wormhole I find myself in a dreamy galaxy.

Such a place a mortal could call Heaven. Cloudy blues and dusty pinks shower the place.

Where should I search? I question myself. Is my companion drifting around here somewhere?

Once again the golden light of fireflies surrounds my soul and I feel my heartbeat

- Not with pain but with a mending hum, a healing hum. The Adrian must be around here somewhere.

I close my eyes and mentally focussed on my companion's eyes, the soul inside. I feel a harmonious hum.

Where could he be.. I ask myself again. "So I found you" I heard the familiar voice of an Adrian soul.

I turned my glowing soul body and faced him. My heart thumped one final time before I knew I had died.

I felt my heart freeze once more and cried inside as I became a gravitional being again.

I then started being sucked back into the planet where I'd been so lonely and cried droplets of salty water.

I watched as I felt myself return. I woke up as if it was all a dream, crying deeply. Once again I was dying.

My heart began to melt once more and I knew then and there I had to give up all hope of living happily in this world.

I grabbed the blade of a Samurai and cast it into my heart, finally freeing from this constant life, leaving for good.

The next life I know cares for people such as me and I won't need to worry about being alone ever again.

When I was granted access to the heavenly palace, beside my God, I turned to Him.

"When will the Adrian come here?" I asked more lonely than interested. He turned to me and spoke..

"Are you lonely, child?" Responding, I cried a helpless "Yes!" and fell to my knees.

"The Adrian you seek died today. His heart melted away to nothing." I looked wide-eyed and worried.

"He needed a companion and lost his chance. His soul has been demolished and there is not even a shred of evidence that he ever existed apart from his decaying soul lying on the planet beneath us."

I froze still for a second. A realization then came to me and I knew -

Happiness was never meant for those who wanted it. It was only meant for those who didn't realize what it was to live without it.

Then I fell, - fell from Heaven and into the world of the lost.

I'll never return.

THE END