Me- The Insufferable Contradiction

• Karendeep Dhadwal, Grade 10
• Poetry
• 2015

I try and try and try.
But words never seem to escape me.
I think and think and think.
Yet my thoughts can never build me.

They say I’m smart, beautiful and pretty,
yet I never believe a word they say.
They say I’m dumb, uptight and ugly,
I believe it all in a heartbeat.

I hate myself, yet I love myself entirely.
I laugh at all their jokes even though I feel like crying.
I wave them all goodbye as they look back smirking.
I feel like I want to die, yet all I can do is live.

I am a loose, insufferable, contradiction,
always standing in my own way.
I hate life and it’s never-ending game.
Yet, I’m still in the ring, fighting, for that impossible win.