Blue

• Sophie Port, Grade 11
• Poetry
• 2017

I stare at my own reflection in the mirror,
The weight on my chest continuing to grow,
As each second ticks by.
This self hatred has become a routine,
A pattern that has left me so caught up in my own thoughts,
That I have lost sight of who I was
No matter how many times they say “beauty is what’s on the inside”,
I picture the curves that cover my body,
The imperfections on my face,
The way my hair frizzes,
And it sends me into a spiral of self loathing that I can’t seem to shake.
I feel like it is all that they see, that it is all that defines me,
And I have never felt more at war with myself.
I am tired of feeling this way,
I am tired of hating my flaws.
I’m tired of feeling blue.