A girl just in between

• Jem Kelly, Grade 11
• Poetry
• 2005

I always wanted to be a dancer
But I never thought I could
I always wanted to be a singer
But I never thought I would

I wish I could be Einstein or Mozart
or even Picasso, but no one is anyone
unless someone says so

If I were beautiful, then maybe just
maybe I'd stand out, but everyone else
is so much more, that they
don't even doubt.

Maybe I could be an Astronaut but
my heart starts arresting just
at the thought

I'm not daring or dashing or smashing or
heart stopping, and I'm not one of those
girls in pink who loves
going shopping.

I don't speak five languages or learn
cues for scene changes, I don't make
people,laugh or own a shiny car.

So to create a piece describing who I am to me
Has created a problem, cause there's
no one here to see
There's nothing I can tell you that sets
me apart from the rest, there's nothing
I can say, that I can do the best.

And I don't wear black and I'm not
depressed. I don't slit my wrists
or wish that I was dead.

I am invisible, an absent, unnoticed
and certainly not missed, yet not hated
or detested, well at least not that's been said.

So here's the problem with being me
I'm not above or below, I'm just
in between.

If I were amazing I could create a piece worth displaying
If I were depressed, I could splash my soul onto a canvass in a bloody mess

So here is me...
Nothing you haven't seen
A girl thats always dreaming
but never is achieving

There's no reason to congratulate me
Nor is there to feel sorry for me
I'm just a girl that's in between.