Dear Noelle

• Angus Thompson, Grade 12
• Poetry
• 2009

Dear Noelle

I’m sorry I have been acting this way, and I’m sorry that I hate opening up,
The reason I keep my cards close to my chest is because I hate to give my trust.
I do not want to trust anyone because I do not trust myself,
Everything was shaken up in this year of living hell.

I no longer know who I am, am I kind or am I cold?
There are two people inside this mind contradicting what I’m told.
One lives for the happy life, begging to be free;
The other demands a cold heart, no love, no friends, no family.

My clan has expectations that I know I can’t meet,
So I’d rather say I didn’t try than have to admit defeat.
Their oppressive grasp upon my neck makes my stomach churn to filth,
I cannot bear to tell them this, which is why I live with this guilt.

Because no one knows the real me, God, neither do I;
Because everything anyone knows about me is a misconceiving lie;
I never feel as if anyone will ever love me for me,
I cannot, and never will be able to live for what I cannot see.


Angus Thompson
26/05/09

Name: Angus Thompson
Postal Address: P.O Box 1011
Berri, SA 5343

Age: 17
Grade: Year 12
School: Loxton High School
Home Phone: (08) 8582 1382
Mobile: 04 3717 1197
Email: angus.thompson92@gmail.com