Deep Inside

• Tamesha Stayte, Grade 11
• Poetry
• 2016

You scream at me, your words shatter me
I want to be free,I don't want to be the person I'm pretending to be,
I just want to be me, you’re like the plague that never goes away,
You hover over me like a dark cloud, You’re like a hunter and I'm your prey,
Why am I so confused?, your darkness haunts my dreams,
Nobody knows who I really am, covered by the constant mask I wear,
I wonder what its like to live a normal life, too smile a real smile and laugh a real laugh,
But this is a solo journey I must fight alone, but its a constant battle against the same enemy,
I look in the mirror and ugly shows, hate streams down my face anger, pain, and hate, kept deep inside, and disgust, disgust in the person I've become, you are my secret, tear me apart, i try to hide you but you always break out, I'm drowning in m tears, I drown every night, I ask why,
you really hate me, I just want to be free and be me, let me go just please,
I am finally going to be free.