Hard Love

• Athina Bailey, Grade 9
• Poetry
• 2009

Hard love

I think I’m crying
I’ve never felt like this before
Theres no point trying
For him I have already fallen

I’m the scarlet letter
He likes me, but loves her
I hope he feels better
Cos of me he’s still living

So I called him one night
Just to hear his sweet voice
I need to know that hes alright
Because it hurts me too

He confessed in me
The things he had done
He didn’t realize that those tears were not his
I just wanted to run

But I couldn’t
But I musn’t
I could never
For I knew the consequences of leaving him

I have never known such sorrow
For one who loves another
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
I would sometimes wish.

And so he weeps
And so he cries
Oh please I don’t want him to die

I was the shoulder he leant on
As the tears rolled down
“for I loved him” I whispered
as I kissed his hairs crown

Could we be what I wanted?
He says that we can
But his hearts set on another
The words he told me were of a man

Without me
He would die
He would fall
Onto hard ground
He would crawl
Just to have my voice found
Without me he would surely die
Peel away to the autumn sky

But I’d do anything to sparkle in his eye
I would suffer, I would lie and compromise

I’m his little piece of summer
But summer dies and autumn follows

But no matter what
I will not leave you
I know this is difficult
But I love you
And that’s all I really know
I know this is messy
I know this is complicated
Its hard love
But its real love