Scared

• Melissa Gabriel
• Poetry
• 2005

I heard something today and it scared me to death
It was about one of my best friends...
She has been having problems lately
with guys, family, school, basically with life

Things are not going her way
And she's found a way to deal
most would say thats good,
she can channel her anger and fear

But you don't know what i know,
and what i know is not good...
What i know is a secret
that she would rather i keep
but now i'm the one losing sleep

up at night,
sick with fright
about what she may do next to take away the pain...

it's not drugs or liquer
nope, thats not for her
Shes found a way that she can hide,
something only she knows, deep inside

I wonder how i missed it
all the scars on her arms
from anything sharp she could find
"doesnt it hurt?" is all i can say
she says "not really" while looking away
I dont know what to do
all i can think now to say is i lOve you
i tell her this before i leave
with tears in my eyes, i just cant believe
that my strong best friend has resorted to this

i stop to think how much ill miss her if she decides
she cant take anymore
and that she needs to shut the door
on her life that has made so many better
and i know you're probably crying as you read this letter
that i am writing to anyone who knows how to help
because im still really scared


^^ I wrote this on the day I found out my friend was in the hospital for cutting!! :'( i'm glad she's ok now!!