Fearwell For Elizabeth Jones

• Shannon Hayter
• Short Story
• 2008

I am standing on the top of the Sydney harbour bridge looking to see the people stop and look to see if my parents had got the idea that I was gone and then I stab my self, just like that, hi my name is Elizabeth Jones and this is my story.

(A week before)
19/12/07
Dear Diary
My life has been derived around my friends and my family and then my boyfriend. Once my life had been perfect and then the horrible news that I got on the 10th of December 2005. I was told that my boyfriend had just been in a serious car crash and that he wasn’t expected to last the night. Well I went and sat next to his hospital bed that night and he did make it but the next day while I was out of the room he died. I’m kinda glad that I wasn’t in the room at the time that he died.

Anyways after the car crash I took a new look on life. I didn’t take anything for granted, I treasured all I had. It has been two years and I have never been the same since. My parents thought that I would be depressed even now two years later. But I’m not, I’m as happy as I ever have been. Well on the outside at least.

On the inside my parents were right, I was depressed and I still am, but I won’t tell anyone because my parents and my friends are all so proud of me for moving on, but if the knew I would lose there admiration.

Well as time goes bye and my life goes on without him I miss him more and more I can’t wait till I die so that I can see him again I had once said to one of my best friends. My friend just laughed at me and told me that he wouldn’t want me to be saying that he would want me to be happy and live my life to its extent. So that’s what I have tried to do I have done a whole heap of charity work to keep myself busy and all that I have been helping my mother at work and my father at home. All that was for him, now it has become too much for me to handle.

I am seriously thinking of ending my life I feel like my life is no longer worth living now he’s gone, I feel like the choice between life and death is no longer in effect. So I’m sorry to say that this will be my last entry because I am planning to end my life in the next week.

So farewell
Elizabeth Jones